Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Positivity Challenge

Day 1 (9/24) was the first day 1 of my positivity challenge. The goal is to review my positive self-instructions 3 times a day for 21 days straight.

Day 2 (9/25) - I've done it twice. I will do it again before I go to sleep. Not sure if I reviewed my instructions. I got drunk with Monica. Every time I feel negative I will do the challenge.

Day 3 (9/26) - Done twice already. I may have missed the 3rd review yesterday. I will make up for it by doing one more review today. Life gets busy. Unexpected events occur, but I will find ways to maintain the spirit of consistency.

Day 4 (9/27) - Completed

Day 5 (9/28) - Completed

Day 6 (9/29) - Completed. I am already feeling like a more positive person.

Day 7 (9/30) - Completed.

Day 8 (10/1) - Had a wonderful dinner with Monica. Complete.

Day 9 (10/2) - Completed.

Day 10 (10/3) - Completed

Day 11 (10/4) - Completed

Day 12 (10/5) - Completed. I took Monica out to dinner. We came back and had good sex :)

Day 13 (10/6) - Completed. Monica came over and we chilled by the pull. Then we had amazing sex.

Day 14 (10/7) - Completed.

Day 15 (10/8) - Completed. I went to the symposium on Big Data. It was lots of fun.

Day 16 (10/9) - Completed. I had dinner at Monica's place. She cooked. It was wonderful.

Day 17 (10/10)

Day 18-21 (10/11-1014)

Friday, September 13, 2013

Discussion with Luis - 2

I had a talk with my mentor Luis on Wednesday. We talked about often guys look through glasses that sees flaws and negativity. Instead, we should see the best in girls. We should look for reason to connect.

There is nothing to worry about. Worrying in a feminine trait. There is no good or bad decision.

Luis also suggest that I write a letter to my mom.

Dear Mom,

I like to call you Mommy, but I am all grown up now. I will just address you as mom. I am an adult, I can make my own decisions. You have nothing to worry about. Everything will be ok. I am now in a place where I am confident in my choices in life.

I make my own money. I for sure make enough money to live comfortably, and you have nothing to worry about. In fact, everyday I am in charge of people's lives. People's live are in my hand. I have to have a high level of judgement and responsibility to do that. I handle my own finances. I certainly seek out women myself and decide who I want to see and date. I've lived by myself for so many years. I cooked and cleaned for myself. Sure I've had some health scares, but I've managed to make it through. I appreciate your help and concern.

Yes I live thousands of miles away, and I think about you and dad everyday. I am responsible for myself. Don't worry a bit. I will take care of you.  

This is a necessary rite of passage for me to be a grown man. I am a gown-up. For god sake I am 42 years old. I can just imagine having my own family, wife, children. I will talk to you frequently, but probably less often. I will make more decisions on my own. I will let go of your financial support. I don't need it. As great as it is to have the money, it is more important for me to develop a sense of independence, confidence, and manhood.

Thank you for everything Mom. I will talk to you soon.

- Jack